The saddest oceans —
I won’t ever drown in you anymore,
I won’t ever stare at your eyes
Where joy once met
I’ll never hold your hands —
Hands made to kiss and love
I won’t ever kiss your lips,
And taste a bit of you
I will never. Never
— I repeat to myself:
I will never be with you
I love you above all things — in the memories
Of your light blonde hair, I forget
What time and suffering mean
My grandmother, you’ve become a child
In your forgetfulness,
But your sweet smile still shines the same
Light of the woman I’ve loved all my life
Staring at your green eyes, I see nothing,
But my own reflection —
From womb to womb,
We now are here because of you
Do you know
How much you’re loved?
I loved you infinitely until the end of my love —
What else could have I offered you?
You didn’t deserve anything less than forever
Walking down the street,
Breathing in somebody’s cigarette smoke,
Dazzled by the scent of slow death and nicotine,
I remember that I don’t have a father —
I’m technically a bastard, but
Pardon my elevated self esteem: I have a baby doll
Face, anyway. People say
I’m gonna go places while I take my daily
Walking down the street, I remember
That girl’s kiss. Her fingers, her
Naked body, her tongue…
And the fact that I haven’t slept
With my boyfriend yet
I’m trapped in the horizon.
I can’t stop staring at this gorgeous
View… It’s a cloudy afternoon
I smile. No, I don’t know why.
I just wonder
If anyone’s really normal at this point.
I sigh because everything seems so mundane
Once I promised to steal a star from the sky
Just so she could have a light to guide her
Through this dead, dark, quiet land
My thievery would be just an act of
Why steal stars from the sky when
She has light
Shining brightly within her soul?
I’m just an ever changing concept
Of ideologies over ideologies;
A confusion of new ideas and old memories
Don’t say you want me to fall in love with you.
Be careful —
I think you’ve been bewitched enough.
You’ve fallen under my unintentional spells
While I’m still trying to figure out what’s
My definition of life
Your shadow always ignites
Too many fast thoughts, but my lips stay sealed,
And I stay here, sitting alone…
Unable to speak the unspeakable facts
Running and running; speaking louder
Than the dead.
I want to be the voice of the defeated.
The witness —
One of the many to sing for
Running and running; I breathe out life
Into people’s lungs
Hold my hand because I don’t want to be alone
When I become one
Of the voices of the silent
This is still a painful world
We’ve built kingdoms and goverments over
Red lands. We’ve built them
With solid bricks; held them with our
Bleeding hands, even when we were too weak to sustain
The weight of our reality
And children still run outside…
Ravens still fly in the nighttime sky.
Flowers bloom. Flowers always bloom because
Life knows no limits